I realized blocks I literally never knew existed. I started crying so much like what the hell. I felt myself wanting to hold that narrative. I thought I need to speak to someone. I need to see a therapist but then everything you guided us through allowed me to complete the cycle and I feel like I don't need to hold on to it anymore. It's not this catastrophic thing anymore. WOW
We do a lot of acting on the inner child so I love it. Tonight she was really confused and really angry. What I noticed is that I had so much fun to play with her and realised I dont allow myself that much. I loved when you asked us to set boundaries with the inner child and I felt this has been the missing piece to my process. Once I working on how to set boundaries with her - you said a lot of things that I haven’t thought of “She doesn’t want to be part of your sex, relationships, money and I felt this about myself where my parents involved me with all their issues and problems and I felt so confused and angry.
So the more I set these boundaries and you did the step into adult self - I felt this adult turned on and the sexual energy coming through my body and I was thinking - YEP she is not here. She is ok. I have set boundaries and I can let go and step into my sexuality and sexual thriving. That was so beautiful and unexpected actually. It was such a beautiful experience!
That was so powerful. I was focusing on what mental belief is stopping me from taking this risk in living a life of freedom and fun and doing what I want. The journey with my inner child and by the end of it I realised I never played. Every time I act from my childish space, like communicating with my partner, it comes out in throwing a tantrum. It’s actually really embarrassing looking back but I realised tonight that it’s just this little girl who is struggling to communicate but doesn’t want to be having this deep conversation, she just wants to fucking play! It was so transformative realizing that. She must go play and I, as the adult, must be having the deeper conversation. It was so beautiful to come to that.
What you said now really resonated with me - I also had to grow up very quickly. I always to be aware if someone was going to snap, I had to be on my best behaviour and watch what I say. So I found when it came to sex, I felt I had to put on a performance. I was always acting from my head and not what I was feeling. So I resonate with calling in more play. Cause I am really good at the communication and putting away the tantrum but I actually want this tantrum, to be angry and childlike. It’s hard cause it’s not me but it’s always so good to become aware of these things and work through them. Thank you!
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