"I ordered my wand a few months ago and I have cultivated a wonderful relationship with it. I would characterize myself as someone who is looking for intense energetic experiences. I have worked closely with obsidian and jade, and I thought I would go against my general tendencies and opt for something soft and feminine like Rose Quartz. It was a very intuitive choice which I’m grateful for since it has allowed me to tap into deeper spaces gently and lovingly. I’ve had a lot of fun with my wand and discovered my own desires more deeply. There’s something deeply healing for me about going into the “forbidden” sexual places with the energy of rose quartz, transmuting what is generally loaded with stigma with pure divine love. The physical dimensions of the wand are perfect for playing with sensations all around. I highly recommend this wand for anyone looking to discover their bodies and “forbidden” fantasies with unconditional feminine love."
- Valerie Passano, United States
“It makes sense you know, flowing with nature. We’ve been doing it since the beginning of time. We don’t question it. Like, the earth kissing my bare feet. The tree brushing against my hand. The wind playing with my hair. The moon bringing silver hues to the ocean water on my skin. The roses blooming with me. A butterfly landing on my knee. The birds singing for my waking. The sun pouring warm honey into my skin. An apple bringing me nourishment. A crystal that takes me places I long to go. Erotic innocence. It’s a coming home. A natural awakening. A natural learning. A natural expanding. A part of who we are.”
- Rachel, South Africa
"I want to allay a memory, or perhaps a few: recollection & release of trauma, self pity & pain. But before I do — I will talk a little about what happened yesterday. I had ordered and received a most beautiful glass pleasure wand. Something I’d hesitated from purchasing because “financial constraints wouldn’t allow” or “ what would people say about me?” or “ I can’t justify the importance of my self—pleasure”. I don’t know why I think I have to come across as an amoeba. Ask for nothing — care about nothing. It’s sets up very little room for potentially disappointing anyone but also denies the very sacred consciousness of who I am. I am not homogenous, undefined or an affected. I am deserving of feeling, volition and expressive words. So when this beautiful package arrived I went to open it and found actual rainbows dancing around my room. — MAGICAL, yes? YES! So I took some photographs excited and enamored and continued to enjoy tremendously the sensations of exploration, release and surrender of honoring and loving my body entirely and thoroughly. Of course I thought to share the images of rainbows to Instagram afterwards— and suddenly I contracted. Was it because I’m private— because I believe my sacredness is my own? Goddess knows I’ve engaged in self pleasure many many times without sharing about it online. Maybe because I don’t want to be vulnerable to what others may think of me? “ah, yes, another bitch on a spiritual trip — thinking she can buy elevation“ — what small thinking to be afraid of — What small thinking to direct my actions with. Truthfully, it’s a mixture of these. I am private and secretive and sometimes it is beautiful to experience something just for the sake of experiencing it for myself. I am afraid and I do let that fear keep me small. I have given many things away to hastily and allowed outside influences to kill them with harshness — to kill parts of me with harshness. And it has not been in service And then something strange happened. I shared my hesitancy with Shani and her response reminded me of the sacred expanding connection established when we refuse to be amoebas — when I allow myself to feel — everything — profoundly."
- Maxine, South Africa
"A particular recollection. Mom and I were shopping and I wanted a — admittedly pretty wild — gold jumpsuit. (Early 2000’s space glam) so I could be this sexy space alien I envisioned myself as. and she said no. and the no was accompanied by the shaming statement and condition that I was too fast to wear something like that and that if I lost weight she might consider buying it for me. and so I walked away with this coding: “Unless I or anyone else thinks you look good enough — you do not deserve to express yourself as the goddess you think you are.” I didn’t lose the weight then. In fact, I believe I gained more. Turning to food to quell my shame and loneliness, turning to baggier less sexy clothes and harsher, passive aggressive behavior to the accompany it. Adopting wounded masculine energy to eradicate the pain of my wounded feminine. This is heartbreaking to acknowledge. This is is liberating and heart healing to forgive. I am allowed — The permission is given me— to me and from source only and eternally— to be who ever I wish, however I wish on any terms which feel true for my soul. Even as that young child, reliant upon her mother financially for acquiring things, my reliance and alliance was only meant for source and now it is. And no it clearly is. I have agency beyond the physical. Beyond inquiring, beyond owning or having something. I am free to express my true self. I deserve. Always. I am deserving. I am good enough. I do not and will not, alter myself out of punishment to conform to what someone else deems worthy."
- Maxine, South Africa
" This brings me to the next reflection. This morning I made myself a meal. Seeded bread eggs, greens harvested from the garden, lemon water nettle infusion and I ate and enjoyed every bite. I can feel the sustenance and nourishment I love digesting in my body. I can feel myself receiving what I deserve. It is so pleasurable. It is all alive in me. And I will tell you here that my body is not now very slim. it is soft, there is padding. And not too long ago I would have denied myself this nourishment based on this. I would’ve eaten too little purged anything that I did eat. I would have hidden from the world or sought meaningless physical validation through men or sex or shopping. I would’ve starved and denied myself like a hungry little ghost. And it would not have been in service. I am allowed to eat, to feel pleasure, to express myself fully and undilutedly and further this is my responsibility. It is my responsibility to alchemize my worth into golden nourishment. It is my responsibility to accept and give and to offer my own permission. I am not an amoeba. I am starlight and earth, fire and flowing water. I am unique elemental merging magic and my response & responsibility is my own."
- Maxine, South Africa
"Wow: where to begin... mmmmm. I was instantly drawn towards investing in a delicious yoni wand. I spent lots of time connecting to the crystal first, this was really part of the whole excitement for me. Crystals have always felt so healing, especially held against my body. Their subtleties are warming and cleansing if observed in silence and celebration. My journey since, with the wand, has been gentle and is ever expanding as I spend more time cultivating a loving and tentative relationship with myself. I have come to honour, making time to connect more deeply with all my bodies: physical, mental, emotional and spiritual. I have discovered that reclaiming my sensuality and sexuality has played a vital role in the development of my spirituality."
- Jade, South Africa
"I first brought my amazing rose quartz wand and instantly fell in love with it! My favourite things about it is how gorgeous it looks, I could look at the beautiful crystal sparkles all day; also how it feels internally, able to reach all kinds of g- spots I previously didn’t know existed, but with the guidance of Native Nude and self exploration I’ve reached new heights of pleasure. I’ve squirted for the first time, when I brought the wand I didn’t even know what this was. The wand has helped me feel empowered and supported in exploring and embracing my pleasure and sexuality. When I first brought the wand, I felt so connected to it, I used to sleep with it in my bed and carry it around with me for self-love. That’s the great thing about them, you can use it as you wish. It’s super calming and soft energy was just what I needed to feel comfortable in my journey. So unique also about Native Nude is the community and being able to ask questions that come up about pleasure. Also the teachings on creating your own self-pleasure, for example I now enjoy lighting candles and putting petals on my bed for self-pleasure, I take more time for myself and it has a positive effect on all parts of my life. With understanding how to release shame and stagnant emotions I have also come so far and it has allowed me to open myself up to so much more in my life! It’s helped me gain confidence and a deeper connection to my body. My wand has helped me own my power, my queen energy. I absolutely adore mine!"
- Ellie, England
"Just want to thank you again and say how powerful last night was. I had dreams after it all and something is well and truly being unleashed. I've gone from feeling powerless this week to completely and fully in my power and it is wild."
- Marina, Canada
"I am allowed to live in pleasure. In all it's magic, unpredictability, chaos and opportunity, life is naturally pleasurable. I am allowed to want and expect more pleasure than pain. Pleasure is my birthright. This is what I felt so wholeheartedly during the Rewilding Rituals yesterday evening. I've spent years learning that it is morally good to constantly put others before yourself. I've watched people who I love, end almost every day overwhelmed and tired, but never consider changing anything. I've learned to feel guilty for feeling too much pleasure. I've told myself that in order to be loved, I can't make others jealous and therefore, I can't live a full, beautiful life! I've seen a life guided by pleasure as an unattainable, and maybe even an undesirable thing. But now, I'm committed to my unlearning. And today, this is what I'm sharing with myself (and now you). I am allowed to live in pleasure. In all it's magic, unpredictability, chaos and opportunity, life is naturally pleasurable. I am allowed to want and expect more pleasure than pain. Pleasure is my birthright."
- Abigail, South Africa
"WOW! What an amazing experience. I released a blockage that's had a hold on me for over 6 years. And I think I'm getting a feeling for taking ownership of my own body and tapping into my own power."
- Hannah, South Africa
“Day 1 of the first ever Native Nude Rewilding was also day 1 of a massive loss, change and transformation in my life. Shani was leading her first and only five day Rewilding. I had signed up a week before after a strong pull and curiosity to do it. As we landed in the space, Shanz brought forward 3 key messages, of which I can only remember two:
1. Loss is coming, but it is a blessing in disguise...
2. Tending to your inner child
I clearly remember resisting the first message completely. I said to myself..."nope that's not for me". Tending to my inner child seems more comfortable, so that sounds good. I'll resonate with that one. Little did I know that just by showing up, I opened my heart, mind and soul to my body wisdom and true as bob, that night my ex partner and I ended our 7.5 year relationship...my ultimate loss at the time. I always relate this back to one of Shani's famous lines " you can't fuck this up" because no matter how much I wanted to resonate with message 2, life had other plans and it was up to me to choose differently and see the blessings. While in emotional turmoil of loss I chose to intentionally show up for the remaining 4 days. I have no doubt in my mind that in doing this it helped me to process the heartbreak and fear surrounding such a massive change and choice. I truly believe that the space created in myself, the love I poured into my very real and raw wounds and the deep trust I forged within that week under Shani's and my body's wisdom established a solid foundation. A deep grounding to transmute and embody this loss as the ultimate gift and opportunity that it had the potential to be. Upon reflection, it is clear that over this past year, whatever has been thrown my way, my intuition and deepest desires have led the way, practicing presence and surrendering to it all- the bad, the ugly, the beautiful, the brave, the joy, the peace, the pride, the love, the light. This is a pure testament to the rebirth that happened deep within my core in those 5 special, transformative days and I will be forever grateful for the Rewilding Ritual giving me the tools to hold space for my self which allowed myself to grow and thrive and most importantly love myself and my life again. It hasn't always been easy but it most definitely has been worth it.”
"I am still processing the power and insights that came with the Rewilding Rituals. It was mad! Through surrendering, I met another part of my inner child and came to understand that it was a fearful voice that encouraged my unhealthy/ bingey relationship to food. I began to know her, accept her and reparent her throughout the week. I am now truly loving my body and looking after her in such a radical way! And it feels like the chub I carried for so long is no longer needed. It's still crazy to me that this work has allowed such radical change in something I've struggled with since I was a little girl. Your work is life changing. Thank you, Thank you!"
- Abigail, South Africa
"My heart is breaking open. I’m feeling through transformational healing at the moment. During a sacred ritual held by the magical Native Nude yesterday, I met parts of myself that I haven’t been able to access with such clarity before. I wept with grief, rage and sadness meeting my inner child who fought so hard to be held. I was flooded with memories of her losing her voice along the way and in that silence, giving away her power. During the ritual my body told me to dance, just like the girl I knew in this photo. And I followed her. I danced through the helplessness, the neediness, the longing and the shame. All I had wanted was for someone to be my hero, and it has been me all along. Forgiveness. Release. Relief. Reclamation. Only you know your own way home. And so, I’m allowing my heart to break a little more open towards the light that lies beyond."
- Nicola, South Africa
"I am brave. I trust. I trust myself. I trust my higher self. I am my higher self. I release control. I trust my body. My body knows. I allow myself to feel ecstasy. Bliss. To receive. I allow myself pleasure. I allow myself desire and to receive my desires. All that power and energy within. To create. It is within me if I just allow it. Surrender into it. I can give and receive in fullness. Life force is creative force and I can access that energy everyday through ritual and practice, through my breath and my body. Soften and surrender in order to fully receive all pleasures and desires."
- Bridget, South Africa
"I just burst into tears because I realised how fucking worthy I am. This is next level shit. THANK YOU!"
- Lauren, South Africa
"Thank you my sister. I honestly didn't realise how much I needed this. I had a good cry when I told myself and realised that I am worthy of abundance and a great partnership and love. That I am enough. I didn't realise how much disbelief and resistance I had inside of myself when it comes to that until now, so thank you for helping me realise this."
- C, South Africa
"I literally felt my whole body tingle, and felt so much love and abundance flow through my body. Was sweating and crying a whole lot! It was insane."
- Lauren, South Africa
"Thank you! Thank you! Your energy is just incredible. Eeeeekkk just going to go bask in the freedom of this release now."
- Marina, Canada
"My body was vibrating and feeling sensations in such an intense way. I felt safe and let my body guide me. That's what I love about your rituals. You hold the space but it's really just your own journey. You can experience what you want to experience."
- Kerryn, Vietnam
"So much energy was in my body. So much tingling. I just had this understanding that all this energy is within me and I need to surrender and soften in order to receive and not just in my body but in my life. Letting go of expectations, of what I think I need and to be open and soft to receive the pleasure and ecstasy and bliss that life has to offer me. This will fuel my heart, soul and body."
- Anonymous, South Africa
"Wow. What an empowering week. Myself and my three friends signed up for the Rewilding Rituals with curiosity, excited to support and tap into our feminine energy. What we didn’t expect was how incredibly transformative and moving the week would be for us - not only emotionally but also physically and spiritually. The space which was created for the group to heal, was so incredibly safe and supportive, free of all judgment or shame. Each of us processed and shifted some heavy blockages and felt so held as we really tapped into what it meant to surrender and reclaim our inner wild. Through breath, dance and a strong collective energy, we all ended the week feeling open, grounded and excited for more!"
- Jade, South Africa
"I was so quiet after... but now things are flowing and I even feel my creativity pouring out. Interesting feeling to breathe through my cervix as I am currently menstruating so could feel my moon cup. But it felt powerful actually."
- Siobhan, Scotland
"Wow wow wow Shani and all you beautiful souls. I have always felt so shy and embarrassed to move my body. This rewilding has been the first time I have felt confident to just let the fuck go! Thank you all so much, I'm going to miss you."
- Reegan, South Africa
"I can honestly say that Shani's Native Nude Rewilding Rituals has opened up something so beyond beautiful inside of me. During the entire week I felt so connected to not just my body but all the other beautiful women who took part in these rituals. My favourite moments in the calls were when I just let go of all judgment towards myself, just listened to how my body wanted to move and just gave way to sensual dance! I really felt so wild and free, and I have Shani to thank for that because she held the space for everyone so well, that I never felt shy and could fully express myself in movement and the different modalities. Shani truly has a gift and a passion that needs to be experienced!"
- Cayla, South Africa
"I feel like I just quantum leaped with grace."
- K, United States
"Shani and I knew each other in school, but never really spent time together. We were from different worlds (or so we thought). All these years later, we have re-connected and the individual life journey's we have both been on share some very close elements. One of which, is the idea of fully embracing, loving and re-discovering our bodies and their connection to our spiritual well-being. The art of loving oneself unconditionally often comes with some really challenging, and potentially uncomfortable growth steps, but it is all SO worth it. One way to cultivate lasting healing on your physical, spiritual, emotional or mental journey is to fully recover the wild womxn within you. To forget how the world tells us to conform and hide our passion and sexuality. To unlearn ways of denying ourselves our truth and identity. But this can be challenging! That's where Shani and Native Nude step in - they create a safe and loving environment for you to explore who you truly are as a woman (or man for that fact), without fear and judgement. I went through the most recent "Rewilding" Journey, and was joined by women all over the world. It was eye opening to say the least. I would highly recommend this ritual to anyone wanting to reawaken their Divine Feminine, to those who struggle with their body or past trauma, or simply to those wanting to deepen their relationship with themselves in a non-conventional and intimate way. Thank you Shani for all that you do for women around the world, and for having the courage to be you, no matter what anyone says! An inspiration to us all!"
- Kirsten, South Africa